Let’s recap April’s goals, shall we…
- Lose 5 pounds. FAIL. I’m still flirting with the 130s, but bouncing between 138 and 143. 😐
- April “RUN YOUR ASS OFF” Challenge. FAIL. Nope. Started okay, but this so didn’t happen.
- Register for my last June race AND my full marathon.
Half pass. I registered for my marathon, but not for my last June race. I will do that soon. - Work on my core strength. FAIL.
- Do another 15 mile run. I planned to. And I attempted, but my hips were starting to hurt and I didn’t want to risk injury the week before a race. Half pass because the intent was there and it took some hella convincing to talk me out of doing it.
- CROSS TRAINING. FAIL.
Overall, April = FAIL. But May will be different.
MAY GOALS
- Lose 5 pounds. I saw 141 this morning. I WILL see 136 or less by the end of the month. I know scale weight isn’t everything, but this isn’t unrealistic. I do still have fat to lose, I just need to be disciplined about it and stop eating all the things.
- Stick with stretches and squats routine. I like it when my hips work properly and without pain. This seems to be helping. Keep doing it.
- Register for last June race.
- Finish getting car taken care of. Still need a little work done to pass inspection. Get that shit scheduled and taken care of.
- CROSS TRAINING. I’ve found a somewhat insane challenge and added to it. I’m gonna give it a go and see if doing something everyday gets me into a better routine.
WORD VOMIT
(I think it should be telling that I keep typing “work” instead of “word”…and yes, I just did it again)
I have moments where I loathe my body, and moments where I love it. Moments where I think I’m fat and think what’s the point of putting myself out there because who in the world is going to be attracted to me, and moments where I recognize that I’m an athlete and a ROCKSTAR (because that must be typed in all caps) and think who *wouldn’t* want me. I thought about making this month No Weigh May, and ignoring (or at least trying to ignore) the scale, but quite frankly, I’m not there yet. The scale doesn’t determine my mood. That’s usually determined well before I step on the scale in the morning. But I’m not ready to not weigh myself yet. At some point I will have to have a no-weigh month so I can prove that I won’t balloon back to my starting weight if I don’t get on the scale every day. But I’m not there yet. Not mentally, not emotionally. It’s just where I’m at right now. I think I need to get to my goal, maintain for a month or so and then try it.
TL; DR: April = FAIL, May will be full of WIN, still insecure but working on it.