Because I’m a sucker for alliterative post titles and I’m just having kind of a blah week. Not happy with my mid-week weigh-in, everything is feeling like work this week except oddly enough my workouts, which have been my saving grace and what gets me through the day. Feeling good enough after last night’s class that I’m going to attempt a run after work.
I’m really struggling with the fact that my mental and physical are so out of sync right now. I want to run every day. Every day. The desire is there. Physically I just can’t do it yet. And it’s incredibly frustrating. And often the most I can get through on a weeknight is 1-2 miles, and I’m missing the days when I could do 5-10 k (3-6 miles) after work without thinking twice. I’m finding more and more races I want to do, which is fun, instead of agonizing over what I’m going to do this month because I need a race for the month. I’m staying in it, I’m working through the frustration, trying very hard to stay patient with the process–I didn’t get here overnight, I won’t get back overnight. And I’m listening to my body and resting when it says to rest or holding back when I shouldn’t push, but it’s frustrating because it’s slower going than I want it to be. And on weeks when the progress is slow or nil it gets hard to trust the process and the journey.
I won’t give up. I still have my eyes on the prize, and I know I’m building toward something bigger and Rome wasn’t built in a day, blah blah blah. I’m staying the course, even when the course kinda sucks. I know what I need to do and what it takes, so I’ll keep doing it. Hopefully the good workout trend will continue and redeem this week for me. Race on Saturday, my first one since I’ve been back at it and not just going through the motions. Not gonna lie, I’m a little excited about it. I don’t race-race, I really just run (though I might push a little harder since I’m being timed), but it’s an atmosphere thing. Really looking forward to my fall racing season–I loathe running in the summer. Which tells you how much I must love running to rekindle my love affair with it during the months when it sucks the most for me (and I know that’s another factor in my slower comeback–the heat and humidity sap my energy faster).
