I found a picture today when I uploaded my phone photos (first time in a month or so). Probably taken under the influence of wine, because I can’t imagine having done it sober. It’s of my naked backside in my full length mirror. And it’s actually kinda good. I don’t look at it and cringe (as I usually do when I look at my backside in the mirror on a day-to-day basis). I look at it and think “how is that my ass? My ass doesn’t look like that when I look in the mirror.” Maybe it’s the angle, maybe it’s the lighting, I don’t know. It hasn’t been retouched, I don’t play that way, it just is what it is. But I look at that picture and find myself wishing that my ass was in fact my ass. Because that’s not what it looks like to me day-to-day.