Month: January 2015

Longest week ever. Winter finally hit PA and I’m freezing. I’m behind on everything, at work and in my real life. A friend from high school died unexpectedly and FB is teeming with pictures of him, which makes my heart ache a little more each time. And I had an amazing dream that my love and I were actually engaged–and woke up without a ring. Can today be over? Can it be Friday? #overit

2015 Goals

I’m sure there will be others along the way, things that I want to accomplish and such, but these are the big 5 that I’m gonna strive for. They might be a stretch, but they are attainable. And they will take focus and effort. My big word for this year is ACCOUNTABILITY. I need to be held accountable for my actions, how I use my time, basically everything. 

  1. Master Macros. I’m very much learning, and as much as I thought I knew, I have a long way to go. But I will get the hang of this.
  2. 5:30 Marathon. I have a lot of work to do, but I can and will get there. If not by Pittsburgh (and probably not Pittsburgh) but by Columbus in the fall. 
  3. Run 2015 miles. This is lofty. It might not happen. But I won’t know if I don’t try. 
  4. Finish my personal training certification. This WILL happen. I’m halfway through my course. Then I study and take the test. Then I put myself out there and find a job I actually like. 
  5. Find a job I actually like. I know I have potential in the health & wellness field. It’s something I’m passionate about and genuinely interested in. Now I need to put in the work to make a living at it.

I will update my race list soon, I’m still debating strategy and what races I want to tackle. 

Bittersweet Reflections…

I’ve been having a week. It’s been a rough and unproductive couple of weeks at work, ended the month so far off goal it was laughable. Glad I’ll get to start over on Friday. 

Spending the evening in. By myself as the boyfriend is at work. Needed some time for myself to come to grips with 2014 and figure out what I want from 2015. 2014 was a great year, don’t get me wrong. It was fun. A lot of good and cool things happened. Overall not catastrophic. But I didn’t achieve almost anything I set out for. Marathon Maniacs–that was the thing I did. Nothing else from the list. And that’s okay…but it’s disappointing when I think about it. I’m not where I want to be personally, physically, etc. And I’m really struggling with that. So I kind of decided to give myself to the end of the year to be mopey about it, and then I have to move on. Start over. Start fresh.

I started working with a nutrition coach so I can make progress and get over the biggest hurdle. So I’ve had my macros figured and I’m doing it properly. Or at least trying very hard to do it. I’m learning. It’s a delicate balancing act, and lots of math. This route will help me focus on my athletic prowess and reaching those goals instead of focusing so much on the aesthetics, as I’m ashamed to admit I still do. 

I’ll post my 2015 goals tomorrow. I’m still deciding what all I want to do and what format I want that to take. Right now, however, I’m finishing out this year on a bittersweet note. More soon.