Morning Rambles

Another week of training in the books. Consistency is relatively solid, I did skip one run and I’m remarkably okay about that. Still struggling with routine in the rest of my life…but we’re getting there. All things in time.

Finding myself a little overwhelmed with details and things that need to get done. Part of the reason I ended up skipping the run was for my mental health–I need to run, but I also needed to sort out my brain and chill out a bit, and in that moment that was more important. This past year has taken a major toll on my mental health–as you can tell from the lack of writing. One of the things that helps me so much is writing, but when I’m struggling it is also one of the most difficult things for me to do. There are some big things I’m dealing with in my personal life, and at some point I will talk about them here, but I’m not quite ready for that yet. Soon, because as I just mentioned, writing helps me and I need to talk about it, but today is not that day. Sorry for “vague booking” but I just want people to know that there is more going on than just training and general Covid-era malaise. I deeply miss nouns–people, places, things–and hope that 2021 will bring a return of those things to my life.

The good thing about having so many things I used as distractions removed from my life is that I’ve been forced to face things and deal. Not always in the healthiest of ways, but I’m working on it. I’ve had time to figure out what I really want and who I want to be and now I have to put in the work to make that happen. Long process, but things will start happening quickly. The little steps are all going to add up.

Okay, enough of my vague ramblings…until next time…